the anticipation of coming home

I am at the end of this insane adventure year... What do I do now?

How do I begin to process what has happened to me this year, in the past 13 months?

How do I begin to figure out the ways I've changed and why and how?

How to I make these memories of the most incredible year of my life last forever?

How do I say good-bye?

How do I say hello again, to what I left behind a year ago?

What if what I left behind no longer fits me?

My heart is aching for just one more adventure, just a little more time to soak in everything wonderful here.

These last days must be filled with love and happiness, for what I had here and this year and for what I am going home to. For although I am leaving this place and these people and these experiences, I am about to go home to that place and those people who I left behind so long ago, back when I was who I used to be.

I have changed so much this year. I have lived and laughed and cried and been broken, been healed and put back together, walked and run, and slept and ate, loved and been loved. I have met people who have changed my life forever. How can I incorporate all of that into my life back home. I am not the same and nor shall my life back home be the same when I return.

This will certainly be another adventure. One that I have never been more nervous for. And one that I am quite excited to embark on :)